diversions

i've decided that writer's block currently sits pretty high on my lists of dislikes. instead of studying for an imminent physics final, i think i'm going to write an entry for my vox, even though i have no particular staggering life revelation to blog about. there probably is better timing for things like this (i.e. blogging), but sometimes life is full of surprises, no?

after a long hiatus from blogging, i'm back. starting fresh. junior year of college has come and gone; i'm older and probably not much wiser. [in the words of mr. ben folds: "the more you know, you know you don't know shit." sigh, so true.] though my mind is still lagging in the wisdom area, my body is definitely experiencing the aging process. it's a sad state of affairs when most of the time, i can't even muster the energy to stay up past 12:30-1am anymore. [but in my poor body's defense, i do wake up around 7am every morning.] i told mama chung about my aging body and withering stamina. pretty soon, she said, i'll be in bed before 10pm every night like papa chung. no, i'm too young for this!

[note the lack of fluid transition; i've always been awful at those.]

i've been wondering whether keeping a blog is worth it. it's more of a self-indulgence thing than anything, you know? --thinking what i have to say is actually of some value and will contribute some good. i wish that i were a better writer, that i were funnier, that i had a plethora of exciting news to share, that i had some great wisdom to impart. but alas, i am not and do not. i'm just a self-indulgent creature who will blog as a diversion to more important things she ought to be doing. most of the time i can't even decide whether or not i should blog about certain things: it's that delicate balance between honesty and privacy. (and you know, gently feeding into the collective voyeurism of our generation while carefully maintaining a veil of mystery and aloofness makes you seem so much cooler. hah.)

some back-tracking events/thoughts:

• event: the feist concert at stubb's was so good! i decided that ms. leslie feist is absolutely lovely. no, she's not pretty or beautiful in that hollywood/fashion magazine sort of way. [don't get me wrong, she's not unfortunate-looking or anything, haha.] instead, she has that alluring, elusive quality about her as a performer that you just don't want to take your eyes off of her. i preferred it so much more to any "beauty" you'd see in movies, on tv, or in magazines.
  
• event/thought: i had a quarter-life crisis. it was pretty intense, and i'm still working on it.
• thought: i'm unbelievably lucky to have some of the people i have in my life. for example, every time most of the time i talk to my parents, i think they're just awesome. i should really work on reciprocating and giving more instead of just taking and taking all the time. i'm terribly spoiled. :( will also work on that.
  
• thought: [this one is actually pretty current, as in occurring right now] i'm listening to artists similar to coldplay on last.fm and just about every song in the last 30 min has sucked. what the heck is going on?!
  
• event: this summer is shaping up to be quite interesting - once i get all the boring summer/med/regular school stuff over with, that is. some pretty exciting events happening! will might blog about them as they unfold.
• event/thought: the "organic produce" series that we've been going through at vox (the church, not the blog) has been resonating with me a lot. since i can list the fruits of the Spirit off the top of my head easily, you'd think that the central theme of each sequential message wouldn't surprise me. but they really have, and each one seemed to have been spoken in a time when i most needed to hear them. this might be the first time in a while that i feel like God can have some very personal conversations with you through something as impersonal as a sermon given in front of many, many people. He is full of surprises and so good.