i am damaged at best,
like you've already figured out
"so that in everything He might have the supremacy..."
Job 37
5 God's voice thunders in marvelous ways;
he does great things beyond our understanding.
6 He says to the snow, 'Fall on the earth,'
and to the rain shower, 'Be a mighty downpour.'
7 So that all men he has made may know his work,
he stops every man from his labor.
J. Christ, you are my sanity and clarity....
It is for freedom that
Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be
burdened again by a yoke of slavery. (Galatians 5:1)
For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!" (Romans 8:15)
In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and he answered by setting me free. (Psalm 118:5)
Listen, my son, and be wise,
and keep your heart on the right path.
There is surely a future hope for you,
and your hope will not be cut off.
wrote this entry a year and a half ago and it's truer than ever today:
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February 6, 2008
I don't feel that deep, deep, WILD sorrow anymore. It's still within me. But it doesn't consume me anymore. I think this is a good thing. I think.
The thing is, I am so in love with God.
I don't think anything or anyone could take that away from me. And that, or should I say He, is my one advantage. My one secret in getting through life.
I am so imperfect. The moments when I fully realize my depravity...it's mindblowing. I pray that you will show me how to pray. How to live. How to be. I am so strong, God, because of You. In many ways, we've made it. We've made it.
Let the battle begin.
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God, in his grace, teaches me the same lessons over and over again and that is exciting (and fortunate) to me
if i could just feel Your touch,
could i be free?
raise me up from this grave,
touch my tongue and then i'll sing
joyfully i'll run to you
Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
thank you, God.
